Venting

Ok, I need to vent - I need this to be a public declaration.

Respect, I am gonna start demanding it, it is not an option! I will with God’s grace NOT allow myself to be sabotaged by well meaning people! In regard to weight loss, our home situation, our dreams of a better life and home for mom.

With God’s help I will NOT listen to negativity I will not tolerate the judgment and accusations of others. I will not become angry when I am ignored and disrespected With God’s help I will be forgiving and give everyone the grace we all so desperately desire.

I will not negate my spiritual gifting and supernatural insight no matter what the skeptic may think. I will with God’s grace live my life humbly before God walking in His truth and seeking His purposes and do my best to do what he has called me to no matter what other people think.

I will with God’s grace not be fearful of man by caring what others think of me and the desires of my heart. I will within my circumstances do my best to creatively find ways to provide a better life for my mother and myself within my physical limitations and not listen to negativity.

I will remember who I am not who I am preserved to be because of our trials and circumstances and I will strive to be a better person and be used to help others in spite of my failings and the unbelief of myself and others.

Matthew 21:18

The Fig Tree Withered

18 Now in the morning, as He returned to the city, He was hungry. 19 And seeing a fig tree by the road, He came to it and found nothing on it but leaves, and said to it, “Let no fruit grow on you ever again.” Immediately the fig tree withered away.

The Lesson of the Withered Fig Tree

20 And when the disciples saw it, they marveled, saying, “How did the fig tree wither away so soon?” 21 So Jesus answered and said to them, “Assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith and do not doubt, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but also if you say to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ it will be done. 22 And whatever things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive.”

Mark 9 23b
23b. Jesus (said). "Everything is possible for him who believes" 24.Immediately the boy's father exclaimed, "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!"

Thy will (not mine) be done on earth as it is in heaven…

I feel much better now! :)