Friday, December 29, 2006

No small victory

I wanted to post the following, a portion of a letter sent out to a few friends and house church.

It’s been a while life has taken on a busyness that keeps us well… busy! I know it’s been a while and I had planned on sending out an update letter after the first of the year but a letter arrived form the court a few days ago and I just couldn't’t wait to share our Christmas blessing with you!

We received a letter from the court, the letter states that the court has denied our insurance companies motion for summary judgment In other words our case is not being dismissed! So what does this mean? First off it means the court sees evidence that makes them believe a trial could bring about another outcome then the defendants (insurance company) claim. So this means the court agrees with us that there is evidence to proceed with litigation.

When the letter arrived I was elated and truthfully amazed at the outcome I saw glimpses of the old me the one before Fibro not just the crisis we have been fighting. I felt free for the first time in a long time to an extent I still do but I am coming back down from the blissful mountain to a place of thanksgiving and reality. We still need legal counsel and although we have won this battle more will follow until we have justice and deliverance after the long season we have endured.

Maybe that freedom feeling came because I felt as though I had accomplished something ~ I succeeded for the first time in eons at something that mattered? I had help, friends who walked me through gave me advice looked up info on the net held my hand until fear of meltdown subsided. But still, I felt and hopefully still feel, that I did something, used my mind and was useful to my mom in a tangible way. Hopefully my stubbornness will pay off and we will have the justice we so desperately crave.

I am thankful for friends and the knowledge that when the going gets tough as well as the victories you learn just who your friends are and I am thankful for you, you have stood with us threw thick and thin.Hopefully it will just be a little longer and this will be over.

Today is my mom’s 77th birthday and she is in hospital for the first time in 13 months. We are so grateful she has had a break from what seemed to be the never ending hospital stays but frustrated to see her back and praying she is released soon. So far they have kept her busy with continuous tests full body contrast CAT scan, Doppler ultra sound of her veins, and a chemical stress test with a follow up next Tuesday. They also want to do an echo cardiogram and plan on Cath of her arteries in her legs to see what is up. She is on IV sodium and glucose IV prednezone (sp?)and two IV antibiotics and a pill that is antibiotic as well. The cough is not as bad as it was and she had a ravenous appetite today for the first time in weeks.

I am trying to find peace and not allow fear to overwhelm me I feel alone and uncertain of things and continue to pray for mercy for mom as she has endured far more than anyone should have to in ten lifetimes.

Its hard to have our win dampened by our concerns for mom’s health but we are so thankful to have good and thorough doctors for once. I hope she can come straight home and not have to rehab so far she seems to be holding her own walking a bit. It would be nice to have her home and bring in OT and PT if we need to.

This post is a jumble I suppose, my mind is spinning with ideas and possibilities. thinking about the lawyer hunt it should be easier but we have had our first no a friend who is working on a couple of big cases wanted to help but just doesn't have the time. I hope to talk with an attorney on Tuesday when he gets back from vacation praying we find someone before the next hearing it would make things easier….

I am tiered not sleeping as I should mom knows this too which makes it hard she is worried about me think I am trying to fight off a bug had a hard day today. tomorrow will be better.

looking forward to three of my fav peeps coming to see mom from Cinti and hang out and have "brunch" tomorrow night they are a huge blessing in our lives.

So I am off to bed and hopefully peaceful sleep!