I wrote this yesterday
Mark Palmer died this morning, it seems surreal we hoped we prayed we fasted we hoped and prayed more It was not to be, I have questions that may never be answered in this earthly dwelling. I have come to terms with the fact that that is ok.
I only met Mark once I liked him right away from his intense passion for God and those he cared for at The Landing Place to his Celtic cross tattoo and the spiritual quest and revelation that went with it. I have followed his journey on his blog his wife Jennifer’s diagnosis with cancer his eternal perspectives and unending hope and faith for this world and the next.
When Jennifer died I asked why? I think she was only 26 her son Micah just a toddler we never met but I felt her passing as though I had experienced the death of a friend. I could not understand why someone so young with clearly so much to give would pass so quickly to leaving behind the two earthly loves of her life.
When I read that Amy and Mark were getting married I cried and thought this is how it should be a friend to both Jennifer and Mark who adored Micah. When the news came shortly there after of his diagnosis with cancer I cried out to God tiered of the sickness in a fallen world filled with disease chemicals and destruction. Tiered of watching the suffering and asked why again why Palmer, hasn’t this one so young endured enough?
Today I sit staring at this screen tears stuck in my throat that refuse to be forced out and free me from the binding. Like so many others including Palmer I held out hope for restoration through miracles of God and science.
I am grieving for sweet little Micah and Amy and the whole community I cannot imagine their pain of having to let go I see the strength and resilience of Amy and know that God gave her to Palmer and Micah as a gift ~ few are brave enough to endure so much with such faith grace and dignity.
I read this on a comment to Amy on Palmers blog a quote from a talk Palmer gave that impacted the life of one briefly yet eternally brushed by the presence of a humble traveler after Jenifer's passing
"I have questions. I want to know why. But, I know where to find the answers. I know who has the answers. So, if I know that why would I run away from Him? I want to be as close to Him as I can."
Palmer was so focused on good and hope and eternal perspectives his story of faith has touched my life like no other.
http://palmerlp.livejournal.com/
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3 comments:
Vir,
I was thinking the same thing. I've been praying for Palmer and his family since hearing about his journey last year at Veritas. I never met Palmer, Amy or Micah but felt such sorrow yesterday reading that Palmer had passed. I was looking forward to this summer/fall when I moved to Columbus. I was going to check out the Landing Place. God works in strange ways.
-amanda
Virgi,
hello. I did not realize you had a blog (even though you most likely have told me this before). But I was checking out my blog counter stats and saw that I had two hits from "Mutterings" so I surfed on over to see who this muttering was. And it is you.
Well i will be adding a new link to my blog today.
Lucy,
Welcome to the crazy I did not know you posted a comment as my computer and blogger have been in an ongoing spat for almost a year, they apparently are taking a break and allowing me to interact with my blog lets hope this is NOT temporary :)
I should warn you ~ this blog WAS supposed to be reflective of soul and spirit what it has turned into is bitching's instead of mutterings i.e. an in depth look at how far stress chaos and destruction can make you look crazy to your friends and scare off the pretenders in a heart beat lol.
Glad your site has a little traffic from mine I hope it helps your farm and the market :)
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