Melt down on Wednesday, ER all day Thursday luckily I did not join in grace the sustaining force has brought us through for now, hopefully the tide will turn and lives will be saved. Details overwhelm me the compounding nature of the apparent curse and just plain old life too much to take in. I have never seen or been through anything like the past few months and I have seen more then my fair share.
Contemplation of what the body mind and spirit can endure continue to spin in my head just when you think you cannot stand another rain drop a storm explodes and drenches you with reality. But then there is the Eye, peaceful safe calm chaos exploding on every side the raging wind whipping around you only a gentle mist against your face as you sit within a little tranquility.
An in-depth exploration into the chasm of the mind and spirit of a slightly broken creature known as vir. An event destined to take place on the eve of 40 when life supposedly begins? let the experiment commence...
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7 comments:
On a serious note: Vir you sound like you need another kidnapping! I mean to find you soon and let you pour out any pain you need to. Or, do the silly chatter thing. Whichever one you need more :) Gimme a call if I don't call you first (you know how awful I am!)
On a less serious note: "genital mist"? ;)
that was Shana *grin* forgot to sign it...being anonymous and all
Oh my gosh that is hysterical, I needed that typo - lets play soon :)
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Not sure what's going on, but I'm thinking it might be your friend in the ER. Virgi please lay some of this burden down. It's taking too much of a toll. You won't be abandoning your friend- in fact you need to share some of these responsibilities with her family and other friends- and that way you can be even stronger for her. Even Jesus had to take time for R&R and get away from responsibilities for a while.
I'd like you to come down here and spend some time, hang out at Border's with me, and see the quints. They're at the perfect age.
On a lighter note, about dreams: This is for real a "repeater" I've had over the last couple of years:
I dream I am eating dirty socks!!!
I am eating dirty socks and pretty soon I have to be sick because I realize, "I am eating dirty socks...why am I eating dirty socks?"
Like my son says, I try to put too much significance in my dreams. Now does this dream mean I'm forcing myself to swallow the nasty sin in this world? Or...does it mean I'm afraid of smelly feet? Or...does it mean I'm sick of picking up my kids' socks? LOLOLOL
Ann,
Thanks for your concern, things were going very well last week I was there one hr morning and eve, she was getting so strong we were all hopeful. She has no fam to help her daughter is out of state. Like most single moms her children have been her whole life and there has been little els, we have been friends for over 15 years.
When she spiked a fever things when haywire she was stable after a couple days at the hospital but asked the DR to leave and they let her this it was premature we now know why but at the time there was no legal recourse and our plans of getting her into a care facility was put on hold again.
Things continued to go down hill for the next 24 hrs and unfortunately I have been her only support fighting with home care nurses doctors and three hospitals all with different agendas, doctor privileges, etc., trying to help her. Her family out of state trapped within there circumstances have had their hands tied and have been working along side me to get their Mom care so they can transfer her close to them.
It is easier to say get out then do it if you have never had someone close to you ill or had to deal with the lack on continuity communication and sometimes just down right corrupt medical establishment it would be very hard to understand all the intricate details of the situation.
She was admitted finally after a tragic incident and transferred to Fairfield Thursday. After fighting on the phone with doctors at the hosp, due to the holiday weekend no one knows her case history, etc., we made the discussion late last night to transfer her to Cinti were her surgeon is.
They have discovered the cause of the problem and I will know more today, I doubt she will be home again if they do surgery she will have to go to a care facility to bring up her nutrients. The fam is still trying to make arrangements to get her close to them I don't know that they can come here based on there current circumstances.
So now all of Blogdom knows a few more details your prayers are treasure...thank you!
I said on an earlier commenet that was somehow erased by the administrator that I think you have a gift with people who are nearing their journey from this world. You are one of the last people they see and that is a tremendous gift and where your heart is.
I do think that now she's in Cinti, maybe relax a little and the doctors and nurses will do their job, please trust God and we can pray that God will guide the nurses and docs to do their job appropriately. I know it's hard but for your sanity you need to breathe for a little while. You have your own health to think about. I'll pray for your friend.
I do think a LOT of people are in Heaven and the last thing they remember about their journey on this planet is your face, and your kindness.
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