Last week
Started writing this several days ago thought I would bring things up to date.
Guess I need to catch up on my weekly events, not that they are so exiting but a couple cool things happened. A neat God thing happened last week, my friends dog Pan disappeared from her yard, I went into a panic calling people praying someone had taken her to the nursing home for a visit. There was nothing that could be done but wait and pray so I went uptown and hung out with two fab chicks I really like and admire had a wonderful time hanging out and laughing and sharing stories.
Ran into an old friend from trek that I had been praying for a lot and hoping to connect with it was greeted to see her and exchange numbers. She learned of the dog saga and promised to keep her eyes open, Not 5 min passed and she called asking if the dog was gold and explained she was at Pizza Hut and saw a stray I new it was her due to the proximity to my house (figured she was looking for me :) we rushed over and all I had to do was call her name and she came running!
What a relief The coolest thing was the divine connection at least that is what I call it, I suppose the cynic would say it wasn't significant just a mere coincidence, but since I don't believe in coincidence ;) makes me think about the chain of events in our lives, Jamie saw us uptown and followed us in her car so we could connect I mentioned my stress about the dog because I was on the phone with a family member trying to find out if someone had taken her.
What would have happened if we had never connected would Pan have found her way just a few houses down the street, would she have been hurt or worse. The possibility of either scenario is great the cynic in me (yes unfortunately there is one ;) could say she would have found her way to me eventually. But the person of faith in me is reminded that the lilies of the fields and birds of the air have no need of worry, so then how much more will the loving Father care for His children? A thought that needs to be permeated on my heart as I toss and turn in my bed living on little sleep and too much stress...
Went on a spontaneous trip Friendship Fri night with JD to connect with old friends and deal with a little business. As always it was a hoot and a blessing to find myself in the midst of muzzle loaders rebel flags and Native American and African traders. I am amazed by the extremes there one booth will have glass blown beads carvings or hand made native wares that blow your mind the next plastic crap and odds and ends of things with no obvious purpose. Can I hook anyone up with a velvet pic of Elvis the latter year's, or maybe a 30 foot rebel flag to announce where the party is? hehehe:)
Like the booths the people are all different and eclectic as well most have lead interesting lives with great stories to tell more then a few faced with tragedy and unhappiness and there are those who I find myself friends with who bless my life and make me laugh, more treasure hidden within the strange tapestry of a tacky little flea market in the middle of know where.
The heartbreak of friendship for me this year was a friend's confession of only drinking water coffee and B vitamins for three months she explained her process of purging toxins from the body and that I should not worry, she is not anorexic but just did not really like food anymore and was eating enough to survive! To say the least I was concerned so I told her so, she is a beautiful woman it hurt to see what she has done to herself all I can do is pray whatever is going on in her life is addressed so that she can find healing.
Back to the farmers market on sat, it was slow hopefully it will pick up as the summer continues and I will be able to continue without interruption. Slept most of the day on Saturday thank goodness it was about time not sure how much more of this insomnia thing I can handle. Had a drink with a friend at Three Trees Sat night good conversation had much fun and even ended up being challenged on multiple levels about life.
Reflective and prayerful Sunday morning soaking in the sun and listening to the birds sing then out to Huston woods for a walk on the beach and a short hike before the craziness of the day even started my responsibilities stared me in the face. Great night at Veritas also with challenging conversation I missed an event I was really looking forward too which really sux but all in all a good but tiring day.
Pissed off VLP on Monday by calling them at my moms insistence, she is just so stressed she wont let up and I worry it will hurt us is she doesn't take stock in what is at stake with the legal issues we are facing. I don't want to blame her but when she constantly nags me with her worries and have you called when will you call what is going on it not only drives me nut it puts me off guard and I make mistakes.
So to my ultimate embarrassment the pressure cooker exploded and the tears flowed while on the phone as the lawyer explained that my two other messages were annoying - so don't call me I will call you. She pretty much threw in my face that calling our lawyer like 4-6 times and leaving messages on his machine over the past 6-7 mo had most likely damaged our relationship with him.
Mind you she drilled me with questions about this and that legal issues and other info expecting me to know all the answers and understand the foreign language that the courts speak. I can't even get an update from the lawyer who wants to withdraw or a legitimate reason for him to want to do this after spending 75 hrs on the case. It make no since to me why he would choose this, I don't know what we will do if he does withdraw and tries to collect money we don't have, hopefully the volunteer part of our agreement will click in and spare us?
If I had spent 75 hrs on a case I would do everything to win that case so I could be paid, I am so nervous about this thing, something just isn't right It's the same gnawing in my spirit I had while the contractor was doing the negligent work at the house and know one would listen to us. There is more here that meets the eye hopefully that will be reviled soon all we can do is trust and believe it will all work out.
Ok, the never ending journal entry has brought me up to date my excuse is I can't sleep and working on business projects are too noisy and my mom is finely back to sleep. So if someone out there did more then skim this page, if you read every single word of this Blog we SO need to talk I'll help find you a hobby, my garage needs cleaning ;) hehehe...
well it is late or should i saw early, maybe I can catch a couple hrs of sleep before I have to be a responsible adult again?
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Vir,
Cannot believe they posted a for-sale sign in your yard... keep me posted and I will keep a' prayin'....
Also, cannot believe what the lawyer said to you and all that. I am sure that must have stung and hurt big time, and your mom constantly nagging you is not helping either I am sure. Hang in there, God is still there! He is aware of everything... He has NOT passed you by! I have been sitting here for quite a bit, just resting in the presence of God and trying to discern if there be anything He would want me to share with ya... I am steppin' out mind ya, and still growing and learning in this area, but after awhile, I the story of the death of Lazarus came to my mind. The story can be found in John 11. Martha and Mary had word sent to Jesus that ..."the one you love is very sick." (vs. 3) Jesus hears about this, and says "Lazarus's sickness will not end in death. No, it is for the glory of God. I, the Son of God will receive Glory from this. Next notice what it says. (check out my bold faced words especially!) "Although Jesus loved Martha, Mary and Lazarus, he STAYED WHERE HE WAS FOR THE NEXT TWO (2) DAYS AND DID NOT GO TO THEM!" (vs. 4-6) He later goes on to tell the disciples that He is glad for their sakes that he wasn't there, b/c this will give them another opportunity to believe in Him. (vs. 15) (maybe doing something in your case for a non-believer?) At any rate, Jesus stays behind for 2 days!! The disciples cannot understand why Jesus would stay behind that long, wondering why He didn't go at the first moment after He got the news. I mean when He is ready to go 2 days later, they think it is pointless by then. Notice, they are willing to throw the towel in, give up if you will. Why bother? He is already long dead! But wait, with our God, "ALL things are possible!" (Matt. 19:26) So, Jesus does delay in coming to Martha and Mary, (to ultimately see Lazarus) but He has a very good reason for doing so. Human logic and reasoning would say this is crazy but with God this is His plan... He planned it from the second He got the news. See, He doesn't always operate on human logic, understanding, wisdom, doesn't always do things the way we would expect Him to.
Martha meets Him and says if only He had been there, Lazarus wouldn't have died. Jesus replies that her brother will rise again, and she says yes, on resurrection day. Then Mary goes to meet Him, and her response is similiar, yet somewhat different. Martha tells her that "The teacher is here and wants to see you." (vs. 28) (and a side note here... I so love this verse, the teacher wants to see you. Jesus really wanted to see her. It is as He knew that she was grieving and hurting and He wanted to console her. He gave a personal and open invitation for her to come. And if you will notice, vs. 29 says "So Mary IMMEDIATELY went to Him. It is then remarked that the people see her leaving "so HASTILY"! She is on a mission to find her Beloved. She wastes NO time! I love the urgency she has... the urgency to go and see the One who adores her so much)
Ok, side note over ;-) anyway, where was I? So when Mary see's Jesus, first thing she does is FALL AT HIS FEET, and then says if He had been there he would not have died. She was weeping and Jesus saw this and was moved with indignation and was troubled. He wants to know where Lazarus was put and He begins to weep. Martha again is skeptical and says by now the stench is bad because he has been dead for 4 days. Correy Russell from I-HOP says that Mary's response to Jesus was one of unoffended love.
Of course we know the end of the story.... Lazarus does come back to life... and this after TWO (2) days mind you!!! If God can raise a man back to life after 2 days, well, just think of what else He can do!!! =D Purty amazing huh?!
The other thing that came to my mind was a phrase that my old pastor, Pastor Joe, used to say. "DELAYED does NOT mean DENIED." It may seem that the Lord is delaying in your situation(s) but remember, it doesn't mean that He is denying you of anything... sometimes there is great treasure in the wait-time, as hard as that wait time may be. We don't always understand why we are waiting, what is going on, but God does, and He may just be fashioning things together during this wait time, and preparing your heart, changing you, growing you, stretching your faith no doubt. You are wondering, Lord, you know what's going on! Why haven't you responded quicker? (maybe a more immediate response) What is going on here Lord? Why the wait? There can be a myriad of reasons, but the point is this: God does have a reason for doing the things He does, and sometimes we don't understand it, but in the end, they will bring Him MUCHO Glory!
Well, anyway, those are my thoughts for tonight....
EM :-) <><
P.S. And just for the record, I did read EVERY word you typed and was not bored, nor do I need a new hobby... I enjoy hearing how you are doing, what's going on etc!! =D
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